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blahh today

i went fishing at around 5am at santa ana lake, came home around 4:30pm- ish. it was really relaxing and i got my mind off of all the bullshit, i caught like two catfish; the first one was a baby catfish and the second one was pretty big. me and my dad just relaxed and had our father son bonding time, i always find it funny when my dad gives me advice on girls and stuff because he actually knows what to say. my dad was a player when he was my age, he doesn’t understand why i’m not the same way; he’s talked to me openly about how many women he’s been with at once and all of that and i find it really hilarious because i know it’s true. i guess since i’m the middle child and i’m the only son next to two sisters, i have more respect for women so i can’t mistreat them or do anything bad in that sense. sometimes i find this to be a good quality and sometimes i wish i had an older brother to show me the way. me and my sisters are spread out too far, my big sisters 22 and my little one’s 11 years old. i don’t know what my activity for tonight will be, i’ve been trying to find things to do at night so i don’t think so much. i’ll probably end up making bracelets (no homo). well i guess that’s all i got, goodnight.

echo

acting like you hate me,
i left because you made me.
you played me to the left
and now there’s nobody left.

It started off great
But who was to know
That love that is lost
Cannot be let go
You say it’s my fault
Okay then I’ll go
It’s better to know

Don’t care who you’re with
Don’t call my phone
Oh did you forget
You know you’re wrong
I’m gone…

All night long
I thought to myself
Why would i stay with you with you
Realized that you were the one who had issues
So why would i miss you?

so i wrote a lot of poems this week.

here’s one…

i exist in the depths of solitude
pondering my true goal
trying to find peace of mind
and still preserve my soul
constantly yearning to be accepted
and from all receive respect
never comprising but sometimes risky
and that is my only regret
a young heart with an old soul
how can there be peace
how can i be in the depths of solitude
when there are two inside of me
this duo within me causes
the perfect opportunity
to learn and live twice as fast
as those who accept simplicity

If I slip away, if i die today, the last thing you remember won’t be about some apple bottom jeans with the boots and the fur.

thats so ironic.

last year around this same exact time, i was seeing chelsea olmstead and i got lead on the same way i did with this girl…. and i talked about it with the same exact person as last year, that part is only weird because me and her never talk.